Anonymous asked: I don't think complaining on Tumblr helps you with your problems.. I mean, no offence, but you post a lot of depressed texts. You should try to think more positive about your life (I know it's hard, cause I've just been through a period like yours, but I'm getting better!) Just, try to talk about it, not on Tumblr ;-) but, with friends (the ones who REALLY understand you, not just fake). It helps. I'm not a talker myself, but eventually I had to, because otherwise I'd go crazy. Good luck. x
I am sorry, but please don’t compare yourself to me. I can’t talk about this. when I try, or somebody asks me anything about it, I just shut down. there is no word that comes out of my mouth. no matter who I’m talking to, though I know I have friends who would understand. and in fact, tumblr does help me. because all those depressed textpost are the only place I can tell how I really feel. and honestly, I’m tired of people telling me to “think more positive”. if it only was that easy. anyway, I’m glad you’re getting better :)
Anonymous asked: You are so fortunate to have those friends. I'd kill to be noticed by people, to have friends who want to hang out with me, male or female. I am honestly insanely jealous :( Try not to take advantage of that and shut yourself away, because you won't truly realize how blessed you are until it's all gone and there are no more options.
I am aware how fortunate I am by having friends like that and in fact, I know how blessed I am. I just feel like I don’t deserve them to be m friend. and I’m so sorry you don’t have friends like that. I wish I could hang out with you because everybody deserves to get noticed. <3
the worst part of all of this is feeling lonely while you’re not alone. I can honestly say I have the most amazing friends in the world. there are plenty girlfriends I have I could call any time and there are enough of my guy friends who would rather waste an hour than to let me go home alone at night. and I feel so sorry about that. I don’t deserve such amazing friends who care and who are always there when I need someone. I don’t deserve friends who let me know every day how beautiful they think I am. I don’t deserve friends who make me laugh until I cry or hug me when I need someone to. and they don’t deserve to be stuck with someone like me.
